You're so gay and you dont even like boys

I'm glad I went through this

Even though I know dont deserve it

But everything happens for a reason

And this happend for many reasons

you're a jerk, you're a liar, you're a tease

and these are just a few things that make up the idiot you are

You're mother can't stand you, and everything your father said was true.

So I'm glad I went through this and I'm glad that it's over

And I'm glad that day by day I'm getting better

If you were around; I'm sure that'd be impossible.

I'm sure I'd be a hopeless reck, still trying to pick up the missing peices

You made things so much harder; So I see no point in me caring that you're gone

You play people, you tell them what they want to hear.

Don't pitty me and come up with some pathetic apology, because you should pitty yourself.

Take a look in the mirror kid

You're as fake as they get.

Say goodnight and go

I take it back.

I change my mind.

I'm over it,

I'm over you

Maybe not fully, but best of all

I'm happy.

She helped me through it

and now I see that it all was stupid from the begining

So you were right

It would never work out

& I'm suprised how okay I am with it.

The perfect night for nightmares

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pluse of blood behind each bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but it does pass. Even for me.

by: stephenie meyer

Got me ten feet off the ground

It's really funny how hard I fell for you, and then you just dropped me without warning.

It's really funny how you told me how much I meant to you and then just changed the next minute.

It's really funny how I have no idea what's going on right now and I have no idea what to think about the situation

It's really funny how I can't stop thinking about; it kills me, and i know it shows.

It's really funny how I can't:

Eat,

Sleep,or

Cope.

It feels like its been ages since I've done any of thoes things.

It's really funny how my best friend is my only life line right now. She's the only thing keeping me sane because she's the only one who I can talk to about how much I messed up, without feeling judged.

But I know I don't deserve this.

I know I shouldn't have to swallow my tears this often

I know I should be thinking about other things

I know I shouldn't have rushed things like I did

I know I shouldn't have to force a smile right now

I know I shouldn't have put her through this,and had her watch me cry because of you.

So once you're ready to tell me what's going on, I'd love to hear it, cause I've never been so lost.

P.S: You didn't even tell her about me did you?

Some are the melody, some are the beat.

you,

cant ever be replaced.

you,

understand everything, others don't.

you,

make me smile when it feels like all i want to do is cry

we've,

taken risks and made mistakes.

we've,

talked so much that we ran out of things to say.

we've,

spent so much time toghether it seems like we basically are roomates.

me and you,

are best friends forever.

Breathe in deep and say goodbye

She looked into the mirror. Her face, coverd in tears. Her eyes, red and swollen. She thought to herself;

"So this is love."

You say you'd take it all back given the chance.

Love is what we shared,
We craved it and gave it away
I spent hours and hours thinking of you,
It felt like it was everyday.
Our hands were locked toghether
We were never going to let go
Your eyes they shone in the sunlight,
And your skin was always a glow.
One night, when the stars were shining
You took me to the park,
You told me not to worry about getting home right now
Even though it was getting dark.

You kissed me and told me you loved me,

But I could tell something wasn't right

Your eyes, they looked like fire

As if they were about to ignite.

Then you pushed me down with such force

That I couldn't even budge.

I thought to myself "maybe this is what all boyfriends do"

I wasn't one to judge.

Then you started telling me how beautiful was,

My ears started ringing, and everything was a buzz.

I asked you to stop, to let me go,

But you didnt listen.

The fire was burning even more;

Your eyes began to glisten.

Then we were naked

And no one was around to hear me scream

It all seemed too unreal

It all seemed too extreme.

I don't really remember what happend after that

But I remember waking up feeling completly flat.

My parents had found me

Lying there on the ground

No words were coming to my mouth

I couldn't make a sound.

They took me to the hospital and told me not to worry

They told me that it's normal that everything was blurry

I got up to go see what I looked like

If I looked the way I felt

I felt like all my insides

Were slowly starting to melt

I looked into the mirror and saw

Bruises, cuts, and scrapes

and I finially could say what I wanted to that night

Rape, Rape, Rape.

I know you've heard this all before

When you have something good hold on to it.

That's what I've always been told

But why is it that once you get older everything starts to unfold?

Be happy with what you have

Is what you kept telling me

But I've learned by myself theirs not always a guarentee

Learn to love yourself

You said it everyday

So why is it that every moment with you was like I was on display?

Don't hide yourself away from the world

You told me to not put myself in disgusie

But I'm tierd of you telling me what to think cause I know

your words are all lies.

Open up your eyes and rewind.

I wish I didn't think about you all the time, because I know all my

day dreams cant possibly become reality.

I wish I could hold you and choose when I wanted to let go.

I wish you would listen to me and actually hear what I'm saying

instead of thinking about what you want to hear.

I wish you could let me in to your world

open and up

and never put up that wall you have surronding your heart, ever again.

All my wishes are just wishes and we all know wishes don't always come true

but if you could put away your fears and doubts

then we could start anew.

happy fathers day;

Dad, I want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry you never got to experience me. Who I am or who I want to be,and I'm really sorry that you never will. I'm sorry that we yelled and I'm sorry that we never agreed. I'm sorry that you'll never know how I truly feel about you, and I'm sorry that I don't believe you care. But what I'm the mostly sorry about is that fact that you were never there.

Dad, I want to say I know. I know now. Everything you've done and said. I thought I could look past it, maybe move on. But it's harder then it seems. I'm sorry that I was such a dissapointmeant and that I'm my mother, but it's better then being a tyrant,like you.

Dad, I'm sorry for all the bad things I think about you. If you were inside my head you would be amazed.You can't even begin to imagine how much you've hurt me. All I wanted was to be a part of your life and now all I want is you out of mine.

Dad, I'm sorry you can't watch me grow up, because I'm growing up fast and theirs no slowing down. I'm sorry I messed so much up for you and I hope you don't go through what I go through everyday when I think about you.

Dad, happy fathers day, even though I couldn't find a person who is less deserving of thoes words.

So Under Rated, Sufficated.

If this is as far as it's meant to go; so be it.

But the taste of you still lingers in my mouth.

Nothing can wash away the finger prints you've left on my heart,

Or the words you've etched in my brain

Your name is carved into stone

And I could try and chip it out,

But I won't

Because I love you.

Maybe I'm Just Dreaming Out Loud

If everything starts to fall apart
I'm here to help you find the missing peices
Our friendship could go on and on
It never really decreases
You picked me up when I've fallen
and made me understand
So sit with me here,forever
On the shores along the sand.
We are like the same person
All bundeld up into one
This bond between us is permanent
It can't be undone.
We've laughed toghether, cried toghether
And done things we both regret
But all I know is I haven't been the same since we met.





Happy Birthday Nicole love you forever.

I know some how I will get over you

It's easy and It's hard

It comes and It goes

You always thought I was so delicate like a fragile rose.

It's silent and It's loud

It's captured and It's free

You're love was never ending, as deep as the deepest sea.

It's scary and It's comferting

It's ugly and It's pretty

But baby nothings been the same since you left this city.

He left before I had the chance to say

Stop running.
Stop trying to make it worse.
Face the facts.
Face what you did.
Do what you need to do.
Do what is best.

Never let them under estimate you.

Never stop believing in yourself.

Think about what's going to happen now.

Think about what's aleardy done.

Don't forget it.

Don't let go.

"Every night you cry youself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

-Maroon 5

Save a Horse Ride a Cowboy

Hug a tree

Turn off the lights

Our planet can't speak

But it doesn't mean it doesn't have rights.

Recycle your cans

And paper too

So if you choose to ignore this

Then Screw You.

& I'm not too blind to know,all the pain you kept inside

Forgive me if I've hurt you

Forgive me if I'm wrong

Forgive me If I'm not what you accepted

Forgive me If I was unexpected

Forive me for all the lies I told you

Forgive me for all the tears I made you shed

Forgive me for every word I've ever spoken that made you choose her instead.

Forgive me for trying

& Forgive me for wanting you

Forgive me beacuase these are all this I can't undo.

We could have a few decent days & nights

I don't know what to say
about How I Feel
So I'll just write what I'm thinking
& act like it's not a big deal.
Words cant describe it
& using a quote just seems wrong
I could make it into lyrics
Turn this into a song
But really I guess it's simple,
How I Feel,
It's just the feelings that I have
are truly unreal
You're in a diffrent place & I am too
So I have to stop telling myself that it's going to change
Because that's untrue.
We could runaway and meet somewhere new
Then it could be just
me & you
I'm not a fan of long goodbyes
So i guess this was a poem of How I Feel
Summarized.

Cause I've been waiting for so long

An ongoing moment of me and you

your heart is lost

but mine is too

just take my hand

& wait for the rest to fall in place

run with me and get away from the chase.

Now you're gone

Best friends?

That is what you said.

But now that he's in your life

You've chosen him instead

We've been though everything together

even if we've had a fight or two

I never thought anything would come between us

No matter who.

Now were sitting here

Alone toghether

So I guess when you said Best Friends

You didn't mean forever.

Don't tell me that you're sorry

Then act like you're not

And because of everything he did

It's our freindship that has rot.

(L)

The OC makes me happy when im feeling sad
The show is good it is not bad.
I like it a lot.
The characters are very hot.
I guess what they say is true
TV does make your brain rot.

could you be the one to save me?

One photograph it makes me smile
Thoughts of you they run so wild

Suddenly

I can't breathe

You're name comes up I go so red

Too many things I haven't said

Come with me

Don't wait to see

Times running out, but we're moving too slow

You're the one person I can't let go.

This could be

Just you & me

The distance between us seems so far

I'd do whatever it takes

Plane, train or car.

Hold me so

Don't let go

They never said it'd be easy, not one bit

But if I've ever learned anything

It's that when it comes to you and me

It's worth it.

They knew better,still you said forever

It’s a funny thing
That one word,goodbye.
Its that one word that can make you so upset
Just want to bundle up and die.
So why did you have to say it? without any care
You knew that I’d be hurt inside you knew it wasn’t fair.
All those days you told me what a disappointment I am
And that you never needed me
It doesn’t really matter now cause it’s you I never see.
I think about you everyday
What you’re doing and what you’ve done.
All the memories of me and you just make me want to run
So now I’m the one saying goodbye because you’re not worth all the pain
And maybe now that you’re gone I cant start to feel a little sane.

You left me and didn’t bother to write or call
I cant let anyone into my life anymore
It’s all begun to fall
Don’t tell me that you’re sorry and then act like you’re not
Because all those days I spent with you it seems like all we did was fought.
All the lies you told me to make me feel better
Didn’t work one bit
I put all the missing pieces toghther and figured it out
I made it all fit.
I wish we could have started over
I wish I wasn’t mad
But what I really wish is that I could have called you dad.

You

365 days in a year seem to go by so slow

6,470,818,671 people in this world

and it's you

I can't

Let Go.

BestFriendsForever

They say nothing lasts forever

But I really think this will

We've been through happiness and sadness

We've been up and down that hill

Through sorrow and through laughter

Through smiles and through cries

It doesn't matter who it is we put eachother before guys

You pick up the falling peices

And make them fit

Just right

We could talk and talk for hours

going straight into the night

Just remember that I'm here for you

and I know that you are too

So when I think of Best Friends Forever

I think of

Me & You