Sunday, November 15, 2009




Il m'aime encore, et toi tu m'aime un peu plus fort
Mais il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort
Et malgré ça il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort
Mais il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort


Thursday, November 12, 2009

why dont you kill me already?




i miss you
i wish you would leave
you bring out the worst in me
you make me someone i hate
i'm missing you because of you

Sunday, November 1, 2009

bluelips



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Thursday, October 29, 2009

you feel like something is about to begin

i have always supported you.
listened to you
encouraged you
what can you say you've done for me?

Thursday, October 15, 2009

ask me. i won't say no. how could i?

no matter how far you distance yourself from me
i will always love you
nothing will ever be able to change that
your hollow heart will always be full of warmth to me
your moody mind will always be a charming savant
your restless eyes will always be sparkling figments of delight
no matter how hard i try
how much i push you away
or how much i try to extract every drop of your allure
i find myself weak
i find myself back in your arms.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

the blues


is this the new year or just another night?
is this the new fear or just another fright?
is this the new tear or just another desperation?
is this the finger or just another fist?
is this kingdom or just a hit and miss
i miss direction most in all this desperation
is this what they call freedom?
is this what you call pain?
is this what they call discontented fame?
it'll be a day like this one
when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in

im singing this one
like a broken piece of glass
for broken hearts
and broken noses in the back
is this the new year or just another desperation?

you're pushing till you're shoving
you bend until you break
do you stand on the field where your broken fathers lay?

it'll be a day like this one when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in

is there nothing here worth saving?
is there no one here at all?
is there any net left that could break our fall?

it'll be a day like this one when the sky breaks down
when the hungry and poor and deserted are found
are you discontented?
have you been pushing hard?
have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

it'll be a day like this one when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in
when the world caves in

is there nothing left now?
nothing left to sing?
are there any left that haven't kissed the enemy?
is this the new year or just another desperation?
does justice ever find you?
do the wicked never lose?
is there any other song left to sing besides these blues

and nothing is okay until the world caves
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in
till the world caves in

-(switchfoot)

romance can only fill so many holes


you've become a liar
pathetic and pitiful
you've given up on friendships
shameful and disgraceful
for what?

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE'RE ALL YOU HAVE?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

im sorry but i'm not surprised


let me have something of my own
i've shared everything with you
every fiber of my being has been shared with you
what have you given me?
what have you let me in on?
the last time i was on top, is a blur
i can't remember when i last called something mine
something i can say i've never let anyone else in on
if i do keep it i'm called a shrew
how can i win?
please just let me keep this, for my own.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

i hate goodbyes


i don't think i'll ever let anyone know how much i secretly care for you
it's stunning really
everyday i surprise myself
everyday i try to let go of you
but i've lost my tight grip on reality
and tightened my grip on fantasy.

10 000


you're alone because of the actions you chose not to take


Sunday, September 27, 2009

THE


names. wordless callings.
we are known as the homeless, the missing souls.
called by those who are called doctor, lawyers, artists, mothers, friends.
are we not those things?
does being left without a home make you obsolete?
we may not have four walls and a roof above our heads
but we still have our minds, our spirits.
we seek healthy lives, like doctors
fight for our rights, like lawyers
sing, dance, paint, like artists
care for our children, like mothers
share a laugh, like friends
are we something to be ashamed of?
not long ago we were like you, now slipped through the cracks.
we did not want this path of desolation
this path that has no promise of tomorrow
to you we may be "the homeless"
but if you look a little closer you will see
we are the jaded travelers searching for a just hand to pull us out

Friday, September 25, 2009

when you've lost your way


im excited for tomorrow because i miss the nights we use to have, just talking.

iforgottomeantion,whenisaidilovedyou,thatyou'rea


HYPOCRITE.

yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away

everyday my self esteem drops lower and lower
i was slowly gaining it all back
my confidence
my happiness
and then in a split second it faded into nothing
i'm nothing
empty, soul-less
i can only ever hope to be good enough
pretty enough
thin enough
smart enough
kind enough
but i never make the cut
it's like everybody's waiting for me at the finish line, and i'm struggling to make it past the start

dlghjsd


you always were and you always will be the taller and the prettier one

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

georgiaboylan


i have never felt so confident in calling someone my bestfriend and knowing they feel the exact same way
i love you more than words could describe.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

you you you


how much do you trust me?

on a side note:
(i've had writters block for so long
it feels like every ounce of creativity in my body has been drenched out
this needs to end.)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

lead me to the door


it feels so good to not care anymore
in some ways nothing has changed
i'll be the person i've always been for you

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

i'll be close behind


you've done so much for me
bringing me back to the person i want to be
no matter what, you have accepted me
how is it possible to learn so much from one person?
i'll never be able to let go of this friendship
thank you.thank you.thank you
i love you

Monday, July 6, 2009

let's leave


i took a train, i took a plane
"oh who cares, you always end up in the city."

Sunday, July 5, 2009

it might just be

the best night of my life

Saturday, July 4, 2009

pathetic

don't complain anymore,
at least not to me.
you're perfect for each other
and i've let go of trying to squeeze myself in.
i'm happy,
finally. 

Friday, July 3, 2009

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

this is the first day of my life


oh foolish heart of mine
how weak and hopeless you have become
every vessel of your being
has slowly started to numb
you've let yourself slip away
forgetting all you've known
did you not learn anything from last time?
have you still not grown?
how pitiful and naive you are
falling for every sweet song
none of those words were written for you
you must learn to be strong
stop being so judgmental
learn to let the right ones in
give up on your petty dreams
let the healing begin

Sunday, June 28, 2009

last one about him, promise


it's no stretch to say you were not quiet a father
but a donor of seeds to a poor single mother, that would raise us alone
we never saw the money
it went down your throat
through the hole in your belly.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Saturday, June 13, 2009

somewhere we went wrong


"blessed are the hearts that can bend, they shall never be broken."

theres a hole in my heart


i'm not going to try anymore

Monday, June 8, 2009

invisible


i'm always treated as though i am not as good
as funny
as pretty
as nice
as her. 

Friday, June 5, 2009

this could be the end of everything


how do i always fall so fast?
who's going to catch me now?
when will these foolish games end?
what's going to be the end result?
where will i be when i realize how naive i've truly become?
why do i have to  question everything?

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

keep some hope alive


i trust you more than anyone
(you seem to be the only one who notices)
what you see the others don't
(no one understands this feeling)
how can i possibly reciprocate what you've given me?
(no way to possibly thank-you) 

Monday, May 18, 2009

one night to push and scream


within seconds you changed,
how is that even possible?
was it something i said?
maybe you didn't change at all
maybe it was who you were the entire time.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

find it




i'm going to do it just to see what he says.

mom


Mothers day, mothers day
one day for you is not enough
all the things you've done for me
through the good times and the rough
no one could ever replace you
you're the glue that holds me together 
you've been my support through everything
my umbrella in rainy weather. 
no matter how naive I am
you have guided me through the right trail
letting me go when I had enough strength
and holding me close if i ever did fail
you've held  me when I've shed my tears
you've laughed with me in times of bliss
I wouldn't be here without you today
without you I would not exist
no poem could ever describe my thanks
no verse, no rhyme, no words
no one could ever sing my love for you
not even the sweetest birds
now today I am reminded
of everything you've given me
of every moment we've spent together
even if we did not happen to agree
so mom please listen closely
and remember that what I've said is true
you've been my best friend, if nothing else
and for that I'll always love you.





Thursday, April 30, 2009

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

i'm so strung out


everything you spoke was a lie
hypocrite
hypocrite
just tell me why

Thursday, April 2, 2009

one line


it's really funny how this happens every time.
am i starting to fade?

Monday, March 30, 2009

Thursday, March 26, 2009

unless it's fiction

What breaks this heart the most is the ghost of some rock and roll fan
exploding from the stands
with her heart opened up.
I wanna tell her that your love isn't lost
say, my heart is still crossed
scream, you're so wonderful
what a dream in the dark.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

be be your love


Darling, say the word and I'm yours.
Put me under your wicked spell.
Dream of us in a field of daises with the sweetest scent.
Let our love be loved, and let our minds run wild with thoughts of candy kisses, and cinnamon hugs.
Release the passion burning in your eyes.
Make every mischievous smile go unnoticed by those who can't understand
those who won't understand.
Darling, say the word and I'm yours.

words could never make up for what you do

I can see you sitting there, looking so alone
Thinking I'm so much happier out on my own.
You'll be satisfied with anyone, anyone will do.
Then you'll end it a week from now, you'll tell her that you're through.
How could anyone possibly not care?
Knowing you're alone, keeping your heart completely bare.
Maybe one day you'll look up to the stars
Then think of me and how you left my heart with all these scars.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

let's dance for awhile

it's been a long year
since we last spoke
how's your halo?
just between you and i
you and me and the satellites 
i never believed you
i only wanted to
before all this
what did i miss?
do you ever get home sick?
i can't get use to it
i'll never get use to it
i'm under that night
i'm under those same stars
we're in a red car
you asleep at my side
going in and out of the headlights
could i have saved you?
would that've betrayed you?
i want to burn this film
you alone with those pills
what you couldn't do i will
i forgive you
i forgive you
i forgive you
i forgive you
i forgive you
for blue, blue skies
i forgive you

so many men would've loved you more

what became of you? 
so desperate and mundane.
a reflection
that's driving me insane
put some heart in it 
take the wheel, don't look back
skip out of town
switch to the next track
what an empty heart
no connect to a soul
who would've ever thought
his mind had such control
don't be childish now,
you know there's never a guarantee
don't let him hold you back
cut the strings to set you free

Saturday, February 28, 2009

i'm a fool

i'll say it once, i'll say it twice
take my heart and roll the dice
i'll let you shine, i'll let you grow
you have my heart, that's all i know
i'll be faithful, i'll be a friend
my warmth for you has no end
i'll say it twice, i'll repeat this tune
my love for you shines like the moon