you shut your mouth, how dare you say i go about things the wrong way?

don't judge me on something you know nothing about

don't tell me I'm wrong, don't say you have doubts.

stop acting like you've never done anything wrong

stop pretending like you've been through this, stop acting like you're so strong.

end this constant lack of support and care

end your judgements, end your suggestions that have placed me in a square

finish off all your negative input so I can breathe and be free

finish off my torn apart heart, finish off your uninterested answers, and let me be.

he's got all kinds of time

I can feel myself slipping from you

my grip has loosened, and my charm has worn off.

I'm no longer the person you fell in love with

i don't know what it is that changed us,

but it was something that turned things upside down

no more nights of warm inclusion

no more days of smiles and laughter

it's like someone came and erased our connection

they deleted all the data that assured us we were right for each other

leaving us with nothing but empty spaces

could we fill these spaces with a fresh start?

or should we find a new way to fall in love?

grow up and blow away

if only you could see that all of this is so pointless. if only you realized that you're just wasting precious time. if only you understood that you're just being immature. 

                                                       

                                                                          

if only, if only,if only.

you're all i have

what happened to that fire that I once saw shining in your eyes?

that smile on your face that was incomparable to sunrise.

the glow of your heart that could warm up a room

the glistening of your skin that was brighter then the moon.

what happened to your laughter that made me crumble inside?

the way you spoke so effortlessly, and how you never lied.

that one cologne you always wore that smelled like a summers night

the way you use to twist my hair and tell me it was alright

what happened to your gentle touch and the way your hands wrapped around mine?

the way you fit your hand on my back and traced along my spine

the way you looked at me even if I hadn't said a word

that day you told me you loved me, no matter what occurred.

what happened to all these things that made me feel secure?

the way you fixed everything, when I was most unsure.

I guess those days are gone now, and the past is in the past

but let's go back in time for once, and make those moments last.

you think you've got it all worked out

Show me how you toy with my heart

how you get me to fall for your lines every time.

Teach me how you can lie without care

the way you know exactly what I'm thinking.

Make me understand how you think what you're doing is sane

you always find away to make me feel like the minority.

Let me show you that my heart is done being played with

save you're lines for someone who's naive enough

Let me teach you how to feel some guilt

you'll never expect what I have coming for you next

Let me make you understand that what you're doing is insane

I'll find a way to make you see that I know better then to listen to you

I'll throw away your instruction manual, 

and toss out all the things that make up who you are

I'll find a new way to waste my time

because I'm done playing your games.

sit tight

you can't miss something you never had.

in fact

Step one: light me on fire.

Step two: walk away clean.

I won't burn long, and evidence of your done wrong will be gone

in seconds I swear.

But if you got time anyways, why not watch me hurt?

And nothing is sweeter then needed revenge.

Oh, that's right

I did nothing.

And you were the mean one

in fact, you even broke my good tape deck.

In fact, I don't wanna be friends

life has just begun

I had a nightmare where you left me, you left me here to cry.

You told me I meant nothing, you told me it was goodbye.

I had this nightmare where you told me I was just a clone

A brainwashed, worthless, idiot with no thoughts of my own.

I remember in my nightmare I had never felt worse

like a million bullets being shot at once,like you put me through a curse.

The words you said in this nightmare were said with such heat

You left no words for me to speak, I couldn't even compete.

In my nightmare you sat silently and watched me cry.

You looked at me as if you didn't care, like it gave you some sort of high.

Then you threw me out of your life, on to the side of the road

You looked at me and shook your head as if it was some code.

Later in my nightmare you can back and claimed your defeat

You told me that without you in my life I couldn't be complete. 

You didn't say you were sorry, you didn't say you cared 

You just told me that I needed you, and I needed what we shared.

I stopped and looked back at the beginning of my nightmare

I asked myself "what is it that we had?"

There was nothing I could think of that didn't make me mad.

So I walked away from you in my nightmare, into the dark cool night.

I thought about what you said, and how it wasn't right.

But a jolt shook me, and I felt myself awake

I realized it wasn't a nightmare

It was just my fathers mistakes.

loose ends

just like you said it would be

all I ever needed to feel was the comfort of love. 

the heat of passion

the glow of joy

all I got was the unsettlement of anger

the hollowness of pity 

and the empty feeling of, alone.

Inside of love

"I know the last page so well I can't read the first, so i just don't start. it's getting worse."

(Nada Surf)

hoping for the best, but expecting the worst

let's run away to a land

where we're as free as birds

where there's always time for smiles 

and little time for words.

let's find a place where we belong

and no one else can judge

where love is the only medicine

and no one holds a grudge.

let's discover a place of happiness

where hatred is a crime

where the days just go on and on

and we never run out of time

let's go find this place with all these wonders,

we'll arrive there hand in hand,

then we'll look into each others eyes and say

"Welcome to Neverland"

inside your head

if anyone has ever doubted your strengths then they were mistaken.

you're one of the most self-assertive people I have ever met.

your willingness to stick around and your constant attentiveness 

makes you more spirited then anyone I've ever known.

if you ever feel the need to put yourself down for any reason

stop yourself and give yourself a reality check.

you're beautiful, and as much as you don't believe it,it's true.

your charismatic personality glows

your smile shines and fills a room.

if you ever feel like you're alone

remember that you have people who love you around you all the time.

I'm reminded daily of all the things you've done for me

if  I ever began to make a list it would trail as long as the nile.

your support alone, is something that gets me through daily.

it's you,you're the one who gets me by.

no poem will ever even began to state how much you mean to me

but when I picture days without you, 

without our laughs

without our cries

without our shared joys

without our shared heartaches

I can only picture darkness. A black,empty room of nothing.

all the people we lost to just find each other, is like some sort of sign

some suggestion that this is how it was meant to be

we were suppose to stumble into each others lives

to fill in that extra part of us that didn't know what to do.

the part that was always feeling lost, dazed, and confused.

I don't even need to ask you to never let go of us

I know you're better then that

I just wanted you to know that

everything i just said was the truth

and it's only the most simple-minded way to put it.

nothing lasts forever

"Truth is absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful then you've ever imagined. And even when the truth is more cruel then any lie."

(one tree hill)

if you asked me if i love him; i'd lie.

you can't force someone to love you

you can't force someone to care

you can't force someone to need you

you can't for someone to be there

you can't make him hold you

you can't make him trust

you can't make him kiss you

you can't make him adjust

so make sure your passion isn't forced

make sure its all true

make sure you know what you're doing

make sure you thought it through.

but don't let me tell you what to do

the chooses are yours to make

but what I'd hate most to see; 

is for you to make a mistake.

watch the world fade away

If I could put myself in your position, I would.

I'd take all your pain and make it mine

I would drown into your misery

So you could float on happiness 

I would take away all the tears

If only to see you smile.

you didn't say it, but i could tell

take it back

I'm sorry if I've caused you any pain in the past few days but you have no idea how hard it's been for me.

I wish I could make things easier

I wish you could see what I've had to deal with

You'd think it wouldn't be such a big deal;

but its killing me from the inside out.