nothing left to hide

forgive me if i'm young

I've learend to tie my shoes,
and my ABC'S
I've learned to say thank you
and to always say please
I've learned to stay away from strangers
and keep close to thoes you love
I've learned to share some things
and others not to talk of

I've learned that people backstab you

and they tell you what you want to hear

I've learned that some come and go

and some just dissapear.

I've learned to never fall for his games

and to put your friends first

I've learned about getting your heart broken

and I've seen it at it's worst.

I've learned that lieing, for some, is second nature

and that people can be ruthless, and unjust

I've learned the hardest thing for me to do

is to learn how to trust.

I've been held back by something, she said to me quietly on the stairs

I'm sorry for everything he's putting you through, he doesn't have any right to do it. But I really don't think this is the end.You'll get through this, with time and effort it'll be a distant memory.

But until then;

I'm here for you. Night and day.

goodbye my almost lover

I realized I didn't care that it was over when I noticed that during;
the hand holding

the hugging

the laughter

the kisses

the moments of gaze

they didn't matter, because the whole time, I felt nothing.

No emotions were set into any of the actions we made, or any of the words that we spoke.

It was all in the moment, just something to do.

It wasn't passion, or lust

It was boredom, and the sheer desire to have someone there.

It was empty.

why do you let me stay here?

My eyes wide open

My head spinning with thought

Insomina is something that can't be fought.

Too many things to remember

And too many worrys in my head

I wonder if,some day, I'll ever get to bed.

I've tried everything there is

Coutning sheep,reading, and meditating too.

Then I finally realized the reason I can't sleep

Is because I'm here without you.

explanations

I can't stand to think about

A heart so big it hurts like hell.

Oh my god, I gave my best

But for three whole years, it could end like this?

Well, do you wanna fall apart?

I can't stop if you can't start

Do you wanna fall apart?

Well, I could, if you can't try to fix what I've undone

'Cause I hate what I've become.

You know me,

Or you think you do,

You just dont seem to see; I've been waiting all this time to be

Something I can't define,

So let's cause a scene.

Clap our hands, Stomp our feet, or something, yeah, something.

I just gotta get myself over me.

I could stand to do without

All the people I had left behind.

What's the point in going 'round,

When it's straight line baby, straight line down.

So let's make a list of who we need,

And it's not much, if anything.

Let's make a list of who we need,

And we'll throw it away 'cause we don't need anyone.

No we don't need anyone

You know me,
Or you think you do,
You just dont seem to see; I've been waiting all this time to be
Something I can't define,
So let's cause a scene.
Clap our hands, Stomp our feet, or something, yeah, something.
I just gotta get myself over me.

And I Hate What I've Become.

You know the night life is just not for me

'Cause all you really need are a few good friends.

I don't want to go out and be on my own

You know they started something I can't stand

You leave for the city,Well, count me out

'Cause all this time is wasted on everything I've done.

You know me,

Or you think you do,

You just dont seem to see; I've been waiting all this time to be

Something I can't define,

So let's cause a scene.

Clap our hands, Stomp our feet, or something, yeah, something.

I just gotta get myself over me yea, over me.

secret heart

it's hard to keep my vision straight

on a night like this with you

it's hard to think clearly, or think at all

when it's only us two.

So close toghether, our hands intertwined

nobody can break us apart
I never knew this could happen to me

but I felt it from the start.

this feeling taking over me

like a rocket sent into space

our memories will last forever

theirs nothing we can erase

so don't ever walk away

don't ever depart.

because now finally here with you,

i can begin to have a steady heart.

I know that I'm good for something

I started to like the feeling.

the feeling of emptiness at the pit of my stomach,hunger.

I lived off the pain,and craved it when it was gone.

I would purposly make myself endure hunger,

just so I could be close to becoming flawless

I knew I was far from it.

If I tried maybe, just maybe, I could reach it and be that image.

That image of perfection.

But the once I hit the amount I thought was enough, I was too late.

I had pushed myself too far.

I had carried on this strike for longer then I needed.

I was weak, and breathless, but I still couldn't stop.

It was second nature now.

This feeling was my life.

The nights I spent in the hospital I mostly thought about what went wrong.

How did I get to this stage in my life?

A stage where family, friends, school and everything else become minority.

They didn't matter.

The days I spent in the hospital I would stare at myself in the mirror

With disgust and selfpitty.

What a foolish, brainless person stood before me.

I realized that all this time I didn't need to try to be beautiful.

I realized beauty was from within

It was your charactristics, your charm, your brain that made up who you were.

People with a proper charctastics, clever charm, and a well balanced brain, wouldn't do this.

So it turns out I was beautiful,

but it didnt matter anymore

because now the image, and the mind that made up who i was, was nothing but

hideous.

all of a sudden it's cold and we're falling apart

too close for comfort

"do you wanna run away together?"

I would say it was your best line,ever.

Too bad I fell for it.

And I walked alone, waiting for you to come along

take my tourtured heart by the hand

and write me off.

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
and it's not the good kind

You forced me to become strong

When I just craved being weak

And you think you know,

And I would like to think so.

But do you that when you go

I Fall Apart.

I'm tierd of hiding behind these lying eyes

I'm tierd of this smile that even I,

don't recognize.

(the good kind by the wreckers.)

state the obvious; i didnt get my perfect fantasy

look at what you've done to me

look at what I've become

look at all the things you did

to me me feel so numb.

look at how you've tortured me

look at how hard I fell

look at how, so effortlessly,

i was drawn into your spell

look at my tears that have fallen

look at my heart that has broke

look at me and remember what you told me

remember all you spoke

look back to when I trusted you

look back to when you cared

look back to everything we once had

and everything we shared

look into my eyes and say sorry

look into my eyes then leave

look into my eyes then ask me

"how could you be so naive?"

I won't be waiting anymore

You'd think after all this time you'd do this one thing for me.

Guess I'm not that important to you.