Love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt.

I can't go to sleep,

in fear that I'll wake up and you'll be gone.

take your time, be careful, dont ever doubt your feelings, and hold on tight.

everybody's changing

You hold me, just so you can drop me.

You have my back, just so you can stab knifes into it.

You trust me, just so I return you the favour, that way you can betray my trust.

You don't support me,

You don't care for me

You don't brighten my day,

You don't stick up for me.

You're an anchor. Drowning me deeper,and deeper into your waters of pain.

They say misery loves company, but you just drag me along in your sorrow.

You take me to the top of the mountain, then push me off so you can watch me fall.

I've been stuck falling these first 99 feet, unable to do anything about it

But I'm pulling the parachute and landing for the last.

(it doesnt hurt to hear it every once in awhile....it would actually make things a lot better.)

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green

jealousy is an ugly color
filled with denial and hate

but once you start your jealous streak

you know its clearly too late

its in your head

its all you know

but nothing can make it fade

it's something you can't let go.

so why do we get jealous?

why do we even care?

Because slowly, once it enters our mind

it's what keeps us aware.

aware of whose betrayed us

aware of who has left

jealous is an ugly color

it's the only color that's a mind theft.

I never learned enough to listen to the voice that says; Always Love.

I stopped loving you once you stopped paying attention to what was important to me and focused on what you thought was important.

Maybe if you listend, things would be diffrent now.

Face up against the glass, I'm looking out.

My mind still wanders at the thought of you.
Like an infection that spreads within meer seconds. I've accepted that;

it's over,

we're done with,

theirs no more us.

but time and time again I find myself thinking;
where would we be now?
All hatrid aside, what would happen if it never ended?
I'd like to think we'd be happy. In eachothers arms, painless.

But a part of me, the part of me that you hurt so many times, knows that that's just ficitional.

We'd be in an endless tug-a-war. Trying to pull eachother in, just to watch the other one fall.

Our diffrences would pull eachother apart, instead of bring us toghether.

We'd be like a puzzle that's missing a couple peices,

As hard as you look to find them; their lost,forever.

I'm trying to find a way to make you realize; that were still meant to be

I wish you could see what you have infront of you.

To see how luck you truly are.

Maybe see how much you have going for you.

You're luckier then others.

Most would kill to be in your place

You're loved, and that's all that some people need.

I wish you could understand that sometimes its hard

When you love someone, somtimes you're scared

You might overwhelm them with emotions.

You're so fortunate to have someone like that

someone to hold, to care for, and to love.

Even when you feel like you need to let go, hold on.

I wish you could see that it's not over, it's just begun.

It looks as though, you're letting go.

they don't know you

the way we know you

they'll never actually know how you truly act

and how you truly feel

you put on this mask when you're around them

sheilding yourself so you can fit in

But why?

Are you not satisfied with what you have now?

Or is it that you think you deserve better?

Is it worth not being yourself?

Is it worth sacrafycing more important friendships?

one day they'll realize who you are

and unlike us,

they won't accept you for it.

who will you have then?

And my friends were like whatever, you'll find someone better

I thought you were diffrent. Diffrent from every other guy I had been with, but I was wrong. You were much worse. I guess this is what you get when you asume. But of course no one deserves what I got from you. No one should have seen what I had seen. No one should have to endure the pain of loosing someone in this way.

Trust is the foundation of love. Or so I've been told. You lost my love when you lost my trust. It took you months to gain it, and seconds to loose it. As quick as a gunshot it was over. Everything you told me must have been lies then. All thoes times you squezzed my hand just so I would know you were there. I could swear sometimes you would look into my eyes and it felt like no one else ever even existed. All the words you spoke, so poetic, so meaningful, we're all thrown out the trash as if they never even existed at all. They didn't matter anymore.

I didn't even know who she was, or if she was the first. How long had that been going on for? I wanted to ask you, but I didn't want the answer. I knew it would hurt me even more. What was it that she had that made you ruin something so pure? But most of all I wanted to ask. Was it worth it? In the end, was sneaking around, lieing to me, losing my trust, and losing me;worth it?

You were very underhanded about how you did it. Shedueling me around your time with her. You messed with my head, and my emotions and in the end you were still left with her and I was left alone. I was left empty and hollow, and you were left with passion and lust. I hope you fall in love. I hope she becomes your everything and then I hope she does what you did to me so you can know what it's like to be left with nothing.

You said you still loved me, even after I caught you. If thats love then I certainly want no part in it.In my books love was something that was suppose to be untainted, and precious. Something that you held on tight to, no matter what. Love was suppose to be charm, and romance. But if love is what you had for me, I don't want it.

If love is cheating, I guess I'll never fall in love again.

Now we're too far gone

My mind is released of all your negative energy

but every once in awhile I'm reminded of your smile

My heart doesn't skip a beat when I hear your name

but every once in awhile I'm reminded of the way your hand felt in mine

My long for your presence is gone

but every once in awhile I'm reminded of the sound of your voice

My head doesn't spin anymore when I think of you with her

but every once in awhile I'm reminded of everything you told me.

The ache in my heart has subsided

and I've chosen to let go.

Always one foot on the ground

It wasn't always like this.

It wasn't always this hard.

I didn't always use to think the way I do;

Taking in every bit and analyzing it too deeply.

Replaying every moment, seeing which parts I could have done better.

I can make things worse then they were

and not stop thinking about things that don't matter.

In search for a switch to turn off my brain

maybe for a day

so I don't have to judge myself so throughly

Maybe without the tension of my mind;

working to make things harder,

I could see the beauty of the world and be carless.

The summer rain is falling

Sometimes I feel like I have to work hard for your attention....

it shouldn't have to be this way.

they learn to play the most ridiculous, repulsive games

Like plastic dolls, you sit and stare.
Perfection beaming from the outside
Smiles that could blind someone
A laugh, so piercing, yet so inviting.
Everything you need at your hands.
But it isn't so easy, is it?

Being fake

must be tough.

Stabbing knives of betral into the backs of thoes who considerd you a friend,

must be tiering

Mood swings that change so fast, you could be mistaken as bipolar,

must be aggrovating

Meaning one thing, but saying another

must get confusing.

But;
Letting people know who you really are
Is a risk
Talking about how you really feel
Is terrifying
Keeping secrets
Is more then often, unbearable
Being fake isn't easy
it's the option you choose because
Being real is even more of a challenge.

Nothing I write is ever good enough

A brick wall,

Inside your head

No words

No images

Everything is dead.

Inspartions gone,

You've lost all hope.

Writting use to be something

That helped you cope.

Fustration and anger,

You don't know what to say.

You're mind is an untidy room

In all its disarray.

You've found the key to open your mind,

But you can't find the lock

It's an never ending worry;

It's writters block.

And if I tried to save him, my whole world would cave in

I loved you, even when you hurt me.Bruised, inside and out. I couldn't bear to let you go even if you were the one person who was hurting me the most. Why is that? How strange. So attatched to the ones who are better left alone.I don't know when exactly it started. I can't pin point back to when you became so fierce. The fire in your eyes lite, and colors of anger and hatrid spilt across your face. In one split second, from happy to angry, from gentel to rough. Purples and yellows, blues and blacks lay all over me. Marking the spots you touched, a reminder of what you did. I hid myself,

I couldn't stand to see what I looked like, I couldn't bear to think what others would think of me if I told them. How could I let this happen? How could I have been so blind not to see who you truly are? And most importantly, why wasn't I putting a stop to this? I couldn't do it. As painful as it was, it would be more painful to watch you walk out of my life, like numerous others.

I can't say it wasn't a relif when you finially got caught in the act. The look on your face, as if you just realized what you were doing was wrong. How could you have been so senseless? How could you have been capable of so much hurt and been so ruthless about it? They took you away from me. Everyday telling me, it wasn't my fault. It was you, you were the monster. How could I still have loved you? I ask myself everyday. How could I stand doing this to myself. I reminded myself that at one point;

You cared for me, You held me, You stood by me, You loved me.

But that all stopped mattering once

You Hit Me.

No love, no glory.

Gone.

In body but not in mind.

Who knew that when you left, a part of you was left behind.

So why did you have to leave us now?

What are we suppose to do?

A part of me is missing when I'm here without you.

I hope you're doing well right now, and better then before.

I'm sorry that no one gave you what you needed

when we knew you needed more.

I wish that I could see you right now

Just for awhile.

And I hope that when you're looking down on us

You're looking down with a smile.

Everytime I close my eyes, it's you.

Two racing hearts

Speeding so fast

How can I make this moment last?

You took my heart,

Said you wouldn't give it back

Why do you seem to have everything I lack?

It's been too long now

We can't pretend

Lets make sure this night doesn't end.

You tested my patience

But I didn't care

No words could describe it, nothing could compare.

So I'll make wish

That you'll stick around

Cause with you here

I've finally planted my feet on common ground.

You've given back

What I was trying to find

It's like with you, my eyes are wide open

I'm no longer blind.

Be still,let it go

click click click

take a picture that'll last forever.

a photo of the world surrounding you

freeze the moment with a push of a button

keep that memory forever stilled.

Share it, love it, keep it close.

Take a look through the lens,get into the camera

capture moments that need to be captured

and moments that were better forgetten.

spontaneous pictures, and pictures that are posed.

all fitted into a hand held slip of paper.

click click click

take a picture that'll last forever.

We've been to the top, we've been to the bottom

One last look
What if thats all you got?
One last kiss
Then everything was forgot.
You could make it all dissapear
In one quick flash
Dispose of me, and everything we were
Throw it right into the trash.

Would you earse me from your memory?

Would you take me away?

Would you clear all the memorys of

Our chaos and dissarray?

To have me gone in your life is one thing

But to forget me is another.

Could you bare to be rid of the memories of eachother?

If you choose to,

Do it without hesitation

Do it without fear

Do it because you want me to never reappear.

Tell me that you'll dance in the end

The days are long
The nights go by fast

But we all know that this feeling can never really last.
Soaking in the sun
And being free
The heat is blazing to the perfect degree.
High tides and low tides
Just being with friends
Theirs going to be new begingings and some ends.
We'll just sit toghether
and forget about the rest
Cause as far as I'm concernd,
This summer is going to be the best.