life has just begun

I had a nightmare where you left me, you left me here to cry.

You told me I meant nothing, you told me it was goodbye.

I had this nightmare where you told me I was just a clone

A brainwashed, worthless, idiot with no thoughts of my own.

I remember in my nightmare I had never felt worse

like a million bullets being shot at once,like you put me through a curse.

The words you said in this nightmare were said with such heat

You left no words for me to speak, I couldn't even compete.

In my nightmare you sat silently and watched me cry.

You looked at me as if you didn't care, like it gave you some sort of high.

Then you threw me out of your life, on to the side of the road

You looked at me and shook your head as if it was some code.

Later in my nightmare you can back and claimed your defeat

You told me that without you in my life I couldn't be complete. 

You didn't say you were sorry, you didn't say you cared 

You just told me that I needed you, and I needed what we shared.

I stopped and looked back at the beginning of my nightmare

I asked myself "what is it that we had?"

There was nothing I could think of that didn't make me mad.

So I walked away from you in my nightmare, into the dark cool night.

I thought about what you said, and how it wasn't right.

But a jolt shook me, and I felt myself awake

I realized it wasn't a nightmare

It was just my fathers mistakes.