i did everything for you

Friends change like seasons. one minute the most powerful friendship you think you've ever had can be destroyed into nothing but tears and regret. Slowly the fear of ever starting a new friendship takes over you. What if you get too close again,but then find yourself drifting apart? What if they realize that you're not the person they thought you were? So much of our times are spent with friends. Time we don't even realize we're spending. Constantly we are by our friends sides. Talking, laughing, bickering. We share things with eachother, we hide things from one another. Most of our days are taken up with a friend. The risk of losing someone so close to you, is frightening. It's terrifying knowing that in one easy minute this person could be out of your life forever. But you realize that thoes who leave you, thoes who change for the worse, thoes who decied to give up when things get hard were never really your friends. They never were the ones who were by your side because right at that moment-when you lost them- you needed them the most. And realizing that they were never actually your friend, is what hurts the most.