black and gold

i looked up into the night sky

and see a thousand eyes staring back

and all around these golden beacons

i see nothing but black

i feel a way of something beyond them

i don't see what i can feel

if vision is the only validation

then most of my life isn't real

would you please take me away from this place?

You never wanted to hurt me

All this pain was by mistake

Every word you ever spoke to me 

Was proven to be fake

At night I feel the cold surround me

The hollow heart takes over

I think back  to when we wished for love

When we found that lucky clover

How could have things changed so quickly?

It was so like you to disappear

Your heart was taken with you

Your mind was never here

You walked away from our happy medium

Never even looking back

Was all this just a game to you?

Am I your hidden track?

i can't breathe

show me some sign that you care

you and i will escape to the seaside

i'm clueless

dazed, and lost

you've stolen my heart

exhausted the cost

i'm losing

my mind, and my soul

clear thoughts fade

i've lost all control

i'm hurt

inside, and out

i need to breathe freely

careless, with no doubt.

here with you

i know it will never,ever be true.

i hated who i was

i'm sorry my dear

but things have gone back to how they were

i won't ever do this to you again

everyone can see right through me

do you still love me?

do you still care?

what must I have done for this to be happening?

an empty whole where there once was a heart

do you still need me?

do you still see me?

I'm crying out for some affection

someone to keep me safe

there's no one to escape this room that I've locked myself in

do you still hear me? 

do you still understand?

I'll keep apologizing, keep living in this paranoia 

always thinking you'll get up and leave

do you still love me?

do you still care?