I remember clearly when I was younger,that I didn't believe in the tooth fairy. I knew exactly what my mom was doing in the mornings when she would distract me then casualy ask me to look under my pillow and find that shiny coin, the coin that would brighten up the rest of my day. It's like It was almost a comforting lie. It was something I could always count on, even though I knew no part of it was ever sincre. We grew up believing in our parents lies, simply to protect us. They taught us that the stove was evil so we wouldn't burn ourselves. They told us that if you we didn't stop crying a monster would come and get you. They told us that Santa could always see what we were doing, so we should always be on our best behaviour. They taught us valuable,basic life lessons. They never taught us how to trust though. That was something we had to learn all on our own. How to let someone in and learn to keep them there. To have a stable person in your life that you could go to in a time of crisis or in a time of fun. To trust someone is possibly one of the hardest things you can learn to do. For some letting someone in is second nature, simple.
But for others letting someone into your life and showing them who you truly are can be the most ambitious, delicate thing a person has to go through. And once you do it you realize that your parents actually did prepare you for what trust brings. Because with trust you also recive lies. Lies to break you and lies to protect you. For some reason the moment you gain someones commitment they find some way to break it, some way to ruin everything you gained. More or less this is broken by lies. And most of the time we know that it's happening, we know we're being lied to. But we don't even do anything about it. We sit back and let the comfort of our knowledge soak in, and then let ourselves break down. We've become so immune to false information being handed to us that we can't even tell the diffrence anymore. We tell ourselves that this isn't true,that this can't be true. We have to be able to tell the diffrence between fact and fiction because if we can't how else can we manage ourselves? We tell ourselves it can't be possible. We then become the liars.
